Quattro ran some errands with me yesterday and while we were ducking in and out of places he said "you seem really happy".
I took that as the best compliment I have ever had. He knows me like no other, he sees me from the inside out. He notices. Eddie of course knows me very well but I think as adults we are distracted by ourselves, life and we know too much of someone's past to really see them for who they are right now. Eddie will always see me a feisty 23 year old, I think, he will no doubt always picture me like that- when we are old. I bet he will have the capacity to go "there" in his head and enjoy me in my youth. That's a good thing.
But my child, my son. He is another creature. He is very much about right now. It might be because he is so young and his perception is nearly 100% good stuff. He has had a very charmed life. But him noticing that I'm happy really made me stop and appreciate this happiness. I've earned it. Triumph is a reality. I'm fucking happy.